Mademoiselle Gjerver

My boyfriend left yesterday (by the way, I drove him to the buss, first time I was driving alone in England, thank god it was 6 o'clock sunday morning!). He didn't want to leave me alone. I said 'oh my god, I am not 5 years old- just go, otherwise you might regret it' (I think I used those exact words).

And off he went, but before he left he made sure to let me know where his money is, and what kind of food we have in the fridge. Well, It is not like I wasn't with him when we got the food, that I don't make dinner every day and that I have payed for my self since we moved in. I think I mentioned something about 'not 5 years old again'.

I could have said 'I am 22, it is not the first time I am home alone', but that would have been a lie, I am 22 and it IS the FIRST time I am home alone for so long (read 5 days). Mum and dad I appreciate that you looked after me and made sure I didn't do stuff teenagers shouldn't (well, as best as you could). BUT, I wouldn't mind some practice in how to be home alone. I mean, who is going to look after me now? aff.. I wish I was 5 years old, and having a babysitter.

Ok, so I know the basics- how to make dinner for myself, how to wash my cloths and how to tidy up- I just don't know what to do when I am done with all that? I know it is not really fair to blame you mum and dad, I can only blame one person - the one who left me? (I guess not, after all I encouraged him to go. Why did I do that again?) The only one to blame (and I hate to say it) is myself. It is my fault that I have avoided being alone my whole life, that I have escaped to the nearest person as soon as I realized the house was empty. And here I am, in an empty flat with no one to escape too.. If this is part of growing up- becoming an adult- I am perfectly fine with staying where I am (call me child, teenager, or whatever you find suitable).

So dear friends- If you would like to move in with me for the week, you know my contact details, for those of you that don't- well too bad for you (and me).

In the meantime I am waiting for friday!

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Ps: Kjære mormor, ingen grunn til bekymring, alt står egentlig bra til. Været er tipp topp og jeg har en bunke med bøker jeg må igjennom- så egentlig vet jeg hva jeg bør bruke tiden til.