The music video I scripted, shot and edited is now online. Check it out: (ps. change the quality to 720HD first)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M3zuD6OLQ0M

 
Adore - Make you feel good

I just updated my show reel. Here it is if you want to have a look:
Camera and edit by me

Or follow the link to vimeo.

I would appriciate any comments you may have. 

I was ones again going to use Google as my guide this morning, and started typing "How to" in the search field. Before I continued I read what Google suggested me (driven by curiousity). The result was so random that I want to share it with you:

Google can help you with anything. I wonder how I train a dragon? But maybe I should find out "How to get a dragon" first. 

And for those of you who wonder have the steak project went yesterday, I can give you a clue "disaster". I will never again make steak in England, seems like the cows here chew chewing gums and gelly instead of grass. Lets just say that we had soup for dinner instead. 

Just popping in to let you know that wine and steak is on the menu in Collingwood Court tonight, and I am looking forward to it. At the same time I am a bit worried about the outcome- it is not every day that I make steak. 

I can also let you know that I wouldn't be surprised if 2012 is the end of the world. The start of the year has been like a roller coast ride of news. Just when I finish jumping around in happiness over an email I get a phone call that brings me back to earth. Don't get me wrong, I am positive, I just believe this year is going to be one of those turbulent ones when alot is happening. Hopefully that will be in a good way. I think it will. 

One of the good things from this week is that I got a letter in the post. Old fashioned letters makes me happy. I think we should write more letters by hand in this electronical world. I will be better at that in 2012. I believe I sent 0 in 2011, so it shouldnt be difficult to improve. 

I got this in the post: 

Made by: mormor

And a letter from mum: 

Drawing by me some years ago.

I am lighting candles today 
A <3 for a special girl that made my day, many times.

I thought I should share with you this beautifully done film made by Caleb Yule (13), so that you can see why I live in Brighton. 

This is Brighton - Caleb Yule

The film is shot as series of stills over 9-10 months. I am very impressed, and a bit jalous of his talent at such age.  

The Christmas holidays passed way to quick. Before I knew it mum was driving me to the station. It felt like those two weeks had past in one day, I guess that means I had a good time. 

This is what Christmas eve looked like: 

Back in Brighton it was time for new year. I am not sure if I was ready for that either. It is somehow scary to enter a new year when you know that it will start off with no work and no place to live. New year - New upportunities for real, huh?Luckily I entered 2012 with two of the best.

It looked like this:

Hope 2012 becomes a good one for all of you. HAPPY NEW YEAR! 

Chris Rea - Driving home for Christmas

I am listening to Christmas song, while making the last preparations before I go home tomorrow. Well, to be honest, I am doing everything today. I don't know what time I am flying, I have not printed my ticket yet, and needless to say (for those of you who know me) - I have not packed my bag. I just discovered that the latter will be a problem. As last year I haven't been too practical when buying the Christmas presents - result; no space left for any of my cloths. 

Wish me good luck. I am sure I will figure something out. Well, with or without cloths, I am coming home tomorrow anyways, possibly rapped like a snowman wearing all the cloths I need for two weeks. 

Looking forward! "I can't wait to see those faces"

I have seen the man-myself. 

Somehow man swathers are more comfortable than female ones (unfair!). So, as I was cold, and Barises warm swather was temptingly next to me, I put it on. I had put my hair back, and removed the makeup and walked to the mirror to put my face mask on. There it was- the manme in the mirror. Lets just say that it was not the handsome type, so I am happy I turned out to be a woman.

Other reasons why I am happy to be a woman:

Face masks, somehow goes better on woman than men (even though I looked like the latter, before I put it on).

Body scrub. I have fallen in love with this smell, and I use it almost every day. 

Having silly crushes. (Thanks mum, I was very happy when I found Edward in my calendar today)

Glitter and Sparkles. I am all about the sparkles lately, and being a female allows me to dress up in it.

My face mask has dried. I gotta go and remove it, AND put on make up (an other thing I appreciate about being a women). I wouldn't wanna walk around as a man-women. 

I have started writing this blog post 5 times now. Writing a couple of sentences, erasing, and starting over again. Somehow it reminds me of my days recently. I think alot (maybe to much), and I make plans, but before I become to the end of my plan, I begin from scratch again. 

I will come back to you with a longer post when I have got something more recenable to share. 

Picture: today

Btw. notice my new christmas decorations in the window.

What to do on a November Wednesday in Brighton, when it seems impossible to get out of bed in the morning. When you put on your blazer because it matches your new skarf- only to discover that the temperature has dropped belove whats comfortable in blazers. When you can't remember the reason for living in UK.. When you wish for snow, for the cold wind to make sense, and because you miss home. When you wish your family and friends were only a busstop away, because it has been too long since you have seen them.

On such a day you take the bus to town and meet beautiful Joanna. You share your annoyment over life over a hot christmas drink in Starbucks. Then you go home and make cinnamon swirls that grows bigger than ever before, light the candles, drink hot mulled wine ala Gløgg and play your favourite christmas song. 

Photos: me, and Johanna

On days like today, I am very happy that the sweetest girl in the world happens to live only a few busstops away <3

Someone posted a picture from www.artige.no on facebook. I followed the link, and here I am an hour later, stuck on www.artige.no, laughing at the pictures. 

The pictures I laugh most at is the ones that looks like a reflection of myself. Here comes a few examples:

But, just as I was laughting at how stupid I can be, I got to an other picture and got a shock. This one:

Pictures from: www.artige.no

Our dog has been out without me realizing. Luckily he is safe back home now: 

Last weekend we went to Beachy Head, as the traditon is whenever we have visitors in the flat.
The fog that sunday gave the cliff and its surroundings a fairy-tale feeling. 

Besides that I have decided to cut down on the sweets, and have a helthier lifestyle. 
Her is me and Aase- going healthy :)

Well, that did not mean that we ignored dessert.
Frozen youghurt. 


Photos: me, 13.11.11

And when that is said. I am making cinnamon swirls tomorrow. 

Ann has been visiting this weekend. Saturday night we decided we wanted to dress up for Halloween as we were looking around in Primark and found two 'stunning' dresses. A couple of hours, a few beers and some thick layers of make up, and a taxi drive later:

Bays, Adrian and Ania went for the "natural scary' look.

Some days I feel like I am fumbling in the dark,
unable to find the door to the future.

I am crawling around on the floor,
looking for something steady to hold on to.

Then I remind myself that I already
know what''s behind the door,

.. so I find the light switch to the present. 

The light is only enough to show me where
to put my feet down next, 

But it follows me as I go,
Step by step..

The door is out there in the dark,
in the unknown.

Some days I get a flash of it,
other days it is almost vanished. 

I don't know how far I have got left to walk before I reach it,
and I don't know what the road will look like on my way. 

But it doesn't matter..

cause as long as I keep my eyes in the light,
I can see the next step. 

And one day I will turn the handle. 

So, just when I considered moving to London, London came to Brighton.

This morning I woke up to the sun, but I wasn't going to be fooled (again), so I dressed up with a warm cardigan and my new fake fur, ready to hit town in the cold wind. Well, guess who ended up carrying the fake fur all the way.

In other words, no excuse to drink hot chocolate today, but a very good excuse to have an ice cream with my favorite man on the beach. 

At this point we put our jackets on, to stop us from feeling that we carried them all the way unnecessary. 

We were not the only ones enjoying the weather. Notice the surfers in the water - next time I will be diving in, just need to get hold of a wet suit first.

<3



On our way back we got reminded that Halloween is coming up. One shop in particular had really gone for the look. 

My

I am really looking forward to Halloween this year, as my lovely Ann is coming from Norway that weekend. I just hope she still dears to come after seeing this scary baby with a 360 degrees turning head. 

Photos: by me, Brighton, today

I am not sure which one of these I find the most scary..

Winter is coming. All of a sudden the air has changed. 

It is time to drink coffee (well, for me it is ALWAYS time to drink coffee, but when it is cold the need for a hot drink is obvious.)

It is time for hot chocolate with creme (again, because it is cold, so no other excuse needed).

It is time to breath smoke, eat mandarins, and drink soup (new trend at work recently).

It is time to stay inside without feeling any guilt. So, find a blanket, light the candles, and turn the music up. And don't forget to make your hot drink. 

Foster the people - Pumped up kicks

Photo: Ann, december 2009

Long time no.. blogging. 

It wont be difficult to sum up the last weeks. Three words will do the job: Internship, Commuting and Sleep. I have calculated that i spend about 20 hours a week commuting. I regretted having done that calculation straight after- it was better not knowing how much it is. Anyway, that should explain why it hasn't been any blogging lately. Today I am off, so I thought I should spend some time giving you an update. (and I will try to do this more regularly from now on).

The good thing is that it is worth it. I love my job. I get to do so much there, that I wouldn't have done as an intern other places. I am now positive that I have chosen the right carrier direction.

See pictures from the music video shoot on "Seven productions" blog here

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Well, I have done something apart from work too. Two weeks ago we had an indian summer with 30 degrees here, and we used the opportunity to go camping. 

We arrived just in time to set up the tents before it got dark. Here we are bbq-ing in the dark (well, the guys are doing the bbq and the girls assist by holding the flash light- the way it should be, right?)

Adrian in the flames.

Bays in the smoke

Ania and Adrian

Camping with Bays is high class. English breakfast on the bbq.

Breakfast

Walking to the lake

It is night time, and I can't sleep. One of the side effects with working nights. I am alone, I think...

There are a few bad things about working night shifts. First of all it is unhuman to stay up all night and sleep daytime, day after day. My body is complaining every day (or well, evening) when I wake up. It feels like I have been out partying the last night. Night shifts are not so much partying, but more money, so I am not complaining. 

The second bad thing is that I am working alone, and I only get a couple of hours socializing before I go to work, alone again. As I have told you before, I am not really good at being alone. 

Today is my night off. I am still alone, of course everyone else has gone to bed. It is only me, and my glass of wine left awake, or is it?

I experience the dark comes sneaking and the birds stop singing, and what we don't see in the daytime comes alive; the nightlife in the forest, from huge spiders to badgers and foxes, and I can't help wondering if there but is there something more out there that we don't see?

At night time, when I am alone, I wish very strongly that I didn't believe in 'ghosts' (the word I choose to use for whats out there we don't know). I do, and I can't help it. I have seen, heard and felt unexplainable things myself. Humans are not perfect. Thinking about it we can't even understand the meaning of endless or eternity, they are only words, but what do they really stand for? So who can claim it is not something out there we can't see?

Photo: Me, taken outside now, Seated chairs. 

When I see empty chairs at night I can't help wondering if they might be seated? I don't have any answers. 

I don't know what happens when we die. Do we all disappear? Do we stay? All I know, or rather believe, is that it is something more in this world that we haven't yet explored. Who is walking in the stairs when we are alone? And who is opening the doors when everyone else are sleeping?..

We might deny it, and find 'explanations', but it/or they are still out there. It doesn't frighten me. I believe 'ghosts' are like humans; most of them are good. What frightens me is that humans are incapable of knowing everything. We are incapable of seeing them. I wonder if they see us, or just empty chairs?

Maria Mena - Mitt lille land

Photos: by me, Horten yesterday

Just candles burning for the ones who lost their lives in Oslo yesterday. It is unbelievable.. indescribable..

Photo: Unknown

‎"Vi er så få her i landet, hver fallen er en bror eller en venn" - Nordahl Grieg


Just to let you know that I am having a great time ýn Turkey. I am currently at a net cafe and the time ýs runnýng out, but anyway here ýs a short list of what my days have been like:

Warm

scuba dývýng

Trying to understand Turkýsh

Say a word or two in Turkýsh

Beach

Turkýsh Bath

Lovely Food

Water sports

Sun cream

Pictures

And the pictures wýll come later :) Gotta run

I am off to Turkey in half an hour. I have not finished packing, and my cloths are not dry (sorry Bays..). I had a mission to learn Turkish before I go, I can say 'Hi' and 'Thank you', mission accomplished? However I am ready for all Turkey has to offer, and I hope Turkey is ready for me. 

Gotta run and get ready, woho!

Ps. Jeg bruker det norske nummeret mitt der

I have to say I got really disappointed watching the final of Britains got talent Saturday night. 
First of all because alot of the ones performing did NOT have any talent, and second of all because Ronan Parke din NOT win (he came second).

Photo: ITV

Ronan Parke has real talent. 

 Click here and you will see what I am talking about. 

I haven't been able to sort my thoughts out enough to blog the last days. The don't even make sense in my head- so how can I write them down? 

As I said in my last post the first though when I handed in my dissertation was 'freedom'. Celebration Generation describes the mood I was in (and still am, at times):

Derektivbyrån

When you finish something one of the first automatic thoughts is "what to do next?".  This thought is the reason for the mess in my head, and the sudden changes in my mood, for to be honest I don't have an answer to that question. 

I don't have a plan. The stupidity is that I have chosen this myself. I was the one choosing to study media even though I knew I wouldn't become anything after three years of study, no title. If you study nursing, you become a nurse. If you study medicine you become a doctor, if you study media you become... exactly you become nothing, just a person with a bachelor degree. It is when you get the job you get the title, and you can start calling yourself something. Yet, I don't regret the s´choice I did three years ago to start studying at HiO or the choice I did a year ago to continue my studies at UoB.

But, my question is- what do I call myself now when I am no longer a student? I don't know, and I don't even know what I will call myself in the future. It seems to me that people expect you to know this. When they ask "so, what are you going to do now when you graduate?"(and trust me, you get ALOT of those questions). "I don't know" is not sufficient for an answer. 

If you don't have a plan, you are lost, you have no goal, and it was useless of you to study at all. Trust me, I have goals. I just don't know what they are yet. But I am working for my them, until I get the title and can call myself something. 

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For those of you who are still waiting for my plan.. Here is the plan for the week:

- Find a work placement
- Get into bikini shape
- Learn Turkish
- Sort out my wardrobe 

I woke up by myself this morning, as I did not set the alarm last night. 

I did not make coffee.

I did not go to the library.

I did not stare at the screen until my eyes went funny

And

I did definitely not write on any paper or ready any books. 

Because i handed all the books back to the library yesterday, after I handed in my dissertation.
FREEDOM - was the first thing that hit me, and it looked something like this:

Photo: Joanna

In the evening it was time for a drink to celebrate the new freedom



Photos: Joanna

At the moment I dislike weekends. It means that everyone is off, except me- I still have to write from morning till night.
I also dislike the coming bank holiday monday very much! (sorry for being selfish people).

Im still hanging in there..

Pictures: Private

What I do like is the coming Tuesday. 3 days to go!

Today my body realized that I am not a robot, and started protesting. 
Luckily Joanna was there to get me up and continue writing.

Photo: Joanna

6 more days to go..


I have been tagged on Facebook recently. This is what the pictures look like:

Photos: Joanna

Oh yeah, only the dissertation left. One week to go! 


Today we are going to do the final finish on the dissertation film. I kind of thought the same thing yesterday, and the day before, so lets hope it turns out to be right today. Time is running out.

Even though these last weeks have been extremely stressful, and im relieved that it will be done today, I am also feeling abit sad knowing that today is the last day of the cooperation in the best team ever. 

Photos: Kamilla

I will definitely miss the coffees, the skype meetings, the kebabs and the tired humor! 
After today I will be working alone, for the next 10 days of writing. But before that we are going to make a toast for the finished film! 

The Norwegian constitution day. A day of flags, ice cream, hot dog, parades, happy people and nationalism.

Gratulerer med dagen alle sammen!


Having a break between the parades. Photos: Private 

For some reason I always get exhausted by the end of the day, so my plan for writing in the evening (on papers, not blogging) haven't been successful so far. But I have had a good day, and the night is still young.

The view from our balcony this evening:



.. Sporty weekend!
I allowed myself some time off writing (time I couldn't afford really, to be honest, but hey I am only human!).

Friday Baris and myself went to play basketball. For me it was about the first time in my life, since I have avoided the game after finding out that basket balls are really hard (yes, I am afraid of balls- or rather getting balls in my head). I took about 5 seconds from me having entered the field to me getting a ball kicked at me (thats my luck!). Although, this time it didnt stop me, and I actually enjoyed the game. 

Yesterday we packed the bbq and fish rod and went to the end of the marina. And the night turned out like this: 

 
This is when I had informed Baris that it is so to say impossible to make a fire out of charcoals without the liquid (which we had forgotten). He was an optimist and tried anyway. 


This is when he realized I was right. A book of yellow pages didn't help.. I went to get the liquid. 

This was waiting when I got back. A Fish in a recyclable bag. Not bad

I decided I wanted to catch one myself.

This is when I thought I got lucky. I was wrong.

Baris is showing me how it is suppose to be done.


and how to do the fishing moves?

We finally got the bbq going.

I was very hungry and almost couldn't wait.

So was Baris.


The burger was very good. And worked as a magnet for other fishermen,
who wanted to give us mackerel in return for a burger.


We had our own mackerel. It was also good
(I don't think you are allowed to say anything else when your boyfriend has caught it) 

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Today we bought tennis rackets and I played tennis for the first time ever. The ball is smaller and less scary, I am Definitely going to play tennis again! 

Now we are sitting in the lounge with two laptops. One is playing football and the other one has numberous drafts open for a paper. For the first time in my life I wish I had the laptop with football on. 

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Hope you had a lovely weekend!

and more editing..

I have been more at uni than at home the passed week.
Kamilla working in our editing room (where I am sitting at the moment, waiting for the film to convert to DVD files)

I have also had some hours in the sun with my friends (even though it feels like I have been sitting in this room constantly since i left England)

At Lektern in Oslo
and bbq in the park 

Photos: Private

If feels kind of strange, now when I am sitting her at uni in Oslo, that I am going back to Brighton in a few hours time. Brighton, where my exam-writing is waiting, luckily my beautiful boyfriend is waiting there too!

It is unbelievable that it is easter. Even though I spent the day at the country side yesterday, as I do every easter. It is not suppose to be shorts and t-shirt weather in easter, but I am not complaining. 

Photos: me, Myra yesterday

I have found out that working in Horten, editing my dissertation film in Oslo and having uni in Brighton can be stressful. But I guess thats me, I can't live without a busy life. 

Hope you're all enjoying the holidays! :)

Oh baby I can't come down so please come help me out 
You got me feelin high and I can't step off the cloud 
And I just can't get enough 

Boy I think about it every night and day 
I'm addicted wanna jump inside your love 
I wouldn't wanna have it any other way 
I'm addicted and I just can't get enough  

Black Eyed Peas - Just can't get enough

We had english breakfast, as you are obliged to when you are in England for the first time. We had a Starbucks break later on between the shopping. Helle had Frappucino for the first time, and I had Frappucino for the.. hundred time, as I have one every time I go abroad. And well, now when I live abroad I have one about every time I go to town.  

Photos: Private

And then Helle left.. Way to early. I am going to follow her foot steps the day after tomorrow, all the way to Oslo.

This week has passed so quick. We finished the filming friday and the girls left yesterday, even though it felt like they just arrived. Today I gave myself a day off dissertation work. It has been the greatest day ever. The summer has arrived Brighton and the beach season is on. Uups, not that I was completely prepared for that, but I cant complain. 

Breakfast at the balcony

After having breakfast at the balcony we packed our stuff and went to the beach. 

When I got back home, smelling like sun for the first time this year,
I was surprised to see that the sun had actually done some work on my back.

Photos: Private

It is summer- in April- and I am happily surprised!


Nicole and Kamilla arrived Sunday, and since then it has been filming and film planing all day, every day. I really enjoy it!

Photos: me

I have only met extremely friendly and helpful people the last days when I have been looking for actors, locations etc. It has been very stressful trying to get all these bricks to fit into next week, but I get very happy when I meet all these wonderful people that give of their time to help me. 

Today a met a not so helpful man. To be honest he seemed to do everything he could to work against me. Fair enough, if it wasn't for the fact that he gets paid for cooperating with people like me. Annoying! But I wont give up. 

Such people can go #$§&*Å! I will use Lily Allen to help me say what I feel about them, as I am to nice to use such words here on the blog.

Lily Allen- Fuck You

When that is said, almost all the bricks are fitted, and I am starting to see what the puzzle will look like, that makes me Happy.

I have had a lovely weekend with Lovise. Two more days to go.

Photos: Lovise

I was quit nervous when I checked wether I got tax return.. or had to pay tax back, as last year, and the year before.

But for once I have actually managed to pay enough! Puh! By the way I must say that it is unbelievable that students (in Norway) have to pay that much tax.

The good news is that I had even payed a bit too much last year, that money will be handy in June when I go to Turkey and Roskilde. Now I am looking forward to the summer even more.

I can't wait.

Photos: me, summer 08

Picture: Unknown, from WeHeartIt

I am in a really good mood today. How can you not be when you wake up to a blue sky and a bright sun?

Me and Joanna were expressing our happiness over the weather on our way to the cinema. I know, who goes to the cinema on such a nice they? Not many I can tell you. The stage was almost empty which came handy when we were too late for the film and couldn't see where we were walking in the dark.

By the way, can you see my cartoon resemblance? Tiny arm and huge head- love it!

It was so warm that we even took our jackets off
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Photos: Joanna

Please let this weather stay!

Who says being able to be alone is one thing you have to learn anyway? I mean it has worked out fine for me so far without that knowledge. Joanna is coming tonight (hurray!), but before that I have a long list of things to do

To do today:

• Contact actors
• Jogging
• Face mask
• Do the bed

Still left to do today

Write draft

Clean the house

Start on the storyboard

Food shopping

Meet Joanna

Eat and drink wine

So I managed 2 (and a half) days alone, well done me! I think that is good enough, at least for now. I better continue on my list now, after all blogging isn't on it.

My boyfriend left yesterday (by the way, I drove him to the buss, first time I was driving alone in England, thank god it was 6 o'clock sunday morning!). He didn't want to leave me alone. I said 'oh my god, I am not 5 years old- just go, otherwise you might regret it' (I think I used those exact words).

And off he went, but before he left he made sure to let me know where his money is, and what kind of food we have in the fridge. Well, It is not like I wasn't with him when we got the food, that I don't make dinner every day and that I have payed for my self since we moved in. I think I mentioned something about 'not 5 years old again'.

I could have said 'I am 22, it is not the first time I am home alone', but that would have been a lie, I am 22 and it IS the FIRST time I am home alone for so long (read 5 days). Mum and dad I appreciate that you looked after me and made sure I didn't do stuff teenagers shouldn't (well, as best as you could). BUT, I wouldn't mind some practice in how to be home alone. I mean, who is going to look after me now? aff.. I wish I was 5 years old, and having a babysitter.

Ok, so I know the basics- how to make dinner for myself, how to wash my cloths and how to tidy up- I just don't know what to do when I am done with all that? I know it is not really fair to blame you mum and dad, I can only blame one person - the one who left me? (I guess not, after all I encouraged him to go. Why did I do that again?) The only one to blame (and I hate to say it) is myself. It is my fault that I have avoided being alone my whole life, that I have escaped to the nearest person as soon as I realized the house was empty. And here I am, in an empty flat with no one to escape too.. If this is part of growing up- becoming an adult- I am perfectly fine with staying where I am (call me child, teenager, or whatever you find suitable).

So dear friends- If you would like to move in with me for the week, you know my contact details, for those of you that don't- well too bad for you (and me).

In the meantime I am waiting for friday!

Photos: private

Ps: Kjære mormor, ingen grunn til bekymring, alt står egentlig bra til. Været er tipp topp og jeg har en bunke med bøker jeg må igjennom- så egentlig vet jeg hva jeg bør bruke tiden til.

My souvenir from Prague is a bowl, filled with sweets. After all I had to buy something from one of the thousand glass shops.

I love to have a bowl filled with colourful sweets on the table, but the sweets disappear quickly, and it is not easy to be healthy when u have constant access to tempting sweets. I found a solution in Prague, actually I bought the glass sweets before I even found the bowl.   


Photos: Private

So the only thing to do is to make sure no one puts glass into their mouths..

Here comes what I believe is the first picture of my outfit on the blog, and probably the last. I am not a fan of 'todays outfit' blogs, and I don't think my readers would be very interested in knowing what I wear everyday. When that is said you will get to see what I wore today.

As you can see it is warm enough to wear a leather jacket, Hurray! I even took my scarf of on the way to town. Everyone was out today enjoying the spring weather.

Notice the top of the picture; kids IN the water:

I celebrated the sun with an ice cream






Photos: Private
Brighton Today

I hope you had a great day too!

It is raining outside, today I appreciate the rain, it makes it easier to stay inside. 
I have spent all morning looking for a boy that resembles my documentary subject as a child
- not an easy job!

But it is more fun than the job waiting for me; This pile that seems to grow when I look at it:

I better get started on it..